Resurgence

It has been a long time indeed, movement in my life has been slow but brusque.

The last time I made my way through the crowds, I lost my cell. Ever since I've avoided traveling in crowded buses. Take a walk they said and so I did. I now choose to walk home right along MG and Richmond road to the crowded streets of Ulsoor.

And yes I've covered some ground in the walk of life too. Am used to the city now, the people, the places, the food,the sights and the sounds. Can claim to manage a house decently doing everything like cooking,cleaning,washing,shopping etc. , the only thing that I am not into (as far as matters of the "house" go) is taking care of kids. Made many new friends in the city, met a lot of nteresting people and watched lots of movies. Work has progressed well and opportunities for pursuing an MBA this July look bright. Yet, some areas need to be taken care of.

An area that I have thought about many a times but reached no conclusion. What is going on in my personal life- am I Confused or pragmatic ? Outspoken or shy ? Wily or gullible ? - I haven't been very successful in categorizing myself. Every time I was confronted with my thoughts I deferred my decision. I tried to decide what would be the qualities my ideal partner would have. I have a strong belief that nobody is perfect including me and was thinking of that one character in someone I love that could wash away all other imperfections. But after not being able to reach a conclusion of any sort, I have stopped trying. I don't know if love at first sight exists but then I don't want to think at length before proceeding. I'll just fall in love with the next amazing lady I come across who can make my heart skip a beat. Some may argue that I might hurt myself in the process, but I guess that's why it's called "falling" in love.

And yes I must mention the story of one such lady I met in my walk of life. But maybe next time.

All is fair in love and war.

Neo: I know what you're trying to do.
Morpheus: I'm trying to free your mind, Neo, but I can only show you the door, you're the one that has to walk through it. Tank, load the jump program.... You have to let it all go, Neo, fear, doubt, and disbelief. Free your mind.

Neo: Whoa. Okie dokie. Free my mind.

Free your mind .. works in the matrix , works in the real world .

What exactly is freeing your mind ? What is real ?

Questions that have puzzled me for far too long ..

Reality is a vivid expression of your perception , things are what you think they are . If you think you are happy you are , if you think you are sad you are .

Freeing the mind would entail letting go of eventualities that bother you .. Overcoming pain, fatigue,sorrow,fear..

These exist only in the mind .. Remove them or refuse to accept them and they cease to exist ....
That is your reality .. what you choose to believe ..

If what you choose to believe is the stuff that makes you happy , so be it .. and if not one might have to change the situation to what he/she chooses to believe is the better eventuality

And then one shall rest a happy person ..

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Had a good day at work preparing an "important" proposal. Towards the end, my colleague Subs finally pressed the send button with such extreme caution that would make one believe the future of half our world has been jeopardised. The smile following it was noteworthy.

Time to go home now and try my hand at cooking. I'm still learning and can only manage conjuring palatble rice,dal,noodles,burgers etc. Still lots to learn ,: the road to success is always under construction.

Peak hour rush now. Have to find my way in the crowd .

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players: 
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts

-Shakespeare,As you like it 

Well , another glorious day has just begun , can feel the morning mist , the warmth
of the sun , can hear the chirping of birds and the din of traffic of course.
And yes it is great to be alive and play my part .....

As I walk down , my mind often wanders, rather rambles on figments of my bustling
imagination to try and capture that part of time that is unseen to all - the future.

Am I walking the path I want to or are the complexities of life showing me the way.
I need to walk my own path , fix my own journey and find the way ... My way .

To see the beauty in the smallest things, to share love,laughter and happiness ..
To feel truly euphoric and know this is the part I've always wanted ..

The future is uncertain, but the end is clear ......